Let them think what they liked, but I didn't mean to drown myself. I meant to swim till I sank -- but that's not the same thing. - Joseph Conrad, The Secret Sharer and other stories.
It's not the same thing at all. Somewhere along the way I have dropped any notions of success that I may have been carrying in my psychic kit bag all these years and I have no desire to pick them up again. Trinkets of approval that collapse into dust the moment you reach out to touch them. It seems to me now, there is only the swimming. And I mean to swim until I sink.
*e.e. cummings. who should have been in charge of giving everything a title in the history of ever.
No idea what has happened but please don't let one knockback overshadow all the fabulous successes of recent times. Go back over your own blog and remember all the wonderful things that have happened and see how happy you were at the time! Don't be flattened by this recent thing, get back up and carry on to great things...
Posted by: Christine | 10/17/2015 at 01:53 AM
That painting really draws me in. x
Posted by: Simone | 10/17/2015 at 03:27 AM
Keep swimming, you do it brilliantly.
Posted by: Anna | 10/17/2015 at 09:41 AM
Thanks Simone - it was completed very quickly and I sometimes think when I dont have time to think about it they have a vibrancy I dont achieve when there is time to think. Even if it is also very messy!
Posted by: Megan Young | 10/17/2015 at 10:08 AM
Nothing wrong, Christine - it is those successes that help me understand that as nice as they are, they are fleeting and no the point of the work. What makes me proud and keeps me satisfied is the work itself, even in areas, like the painting, where I am not skilled and have yet to learn how to accomplish what I want to accomplish.
Megan
Posted by: Megan Young | 10/17/2015 at 10:10 AM
Thanks Anna. It has become very satisfying, just to do the work and let the rest take care of itself, or not.
Posted by: Megan Young | 10/17/2015 at 10:11 AM
That's great to hear.
Posted by: Christine | 10/17/2015 at 10:14 AM
this is all very brilliant.
i've made similar abandonments in my days and i feel all the better for it. 'tis all just a Glamour after all.
happy to be a genius farmhand, nowadays. xo
Posted by: mel | 10/18/2015 at 12:35 AM
maybe that is success in itself though? enjoying things for their own sake rather than for a sense of specific accomplishment, it sounds like the ultimate success in some ways!
Posted by: katie | 10/19/2015 at 11:16 AM
keep enjoying it. I think that's the main thing.
Posted by: monica | 10/20/2015 at 12:23 AM